Give Love for Free

This morning I felt dry and crabby, no reason, just not feeling very juicy and alive. What was missing was this connection to my heart. So, I had a choice, to start roaming about trying to make things right or to sit and meditate and open up the space for balance to find me. I got the feeling that I wanted to connect with Amma, so I pulled out my chant book and was going to do the 108 names when I felt this intellectual skepticism, like, “oh, religion, the opiate of the masses”. I have tried to figure out how Gurus work, and it something really does happen beyond our rational understanding, but it can be felt. And that’s what happened this morning, I had the choice to be a skeptic and not do a devotional practice or to just dive right in. In this way, bhakti yoga, guru yoga, and love are all practices we have to attune ourselves to. Harshada Wagner says, “The mind is the cock-block to the heart”. The question becomes “wow, which do I prefer living in my mind or my heart?” HA!

I’ve been practicing these Bhakti heart practices for years and there’s still often a dialogue between my brain and my heart. But I decided to dive in and just open my heart to the Mother. I thought of Mother’s Day just passed and how Mom’s give so generously to their babies to nourish them. I felt like a Grinch for not wanting to give some love back. So that was my practice this morning, just giving love to Amma, being in that Love exchange with her, because I get that vibe from her when I hang out with her picture! It’s insane and almost stupid, an opiate for sure, but it’s the Heart and it’s just as real as any thought, maybe more real….

Aphex Twin

Hooked on this Aphex Twin album– get through the first track that’s like a creepy cartoon theme song and you enter into a dreamscape of sweet synth jams. Aphex Twin is like Kali– he always scared me, the creepy imagery he uses, but when you just kiss the frog, he turns into a Prince and you get the immense beauty that’s inside <3

Yoga to feel Connected

How can we feel more connected in yoga, and not just banging our head against a wall of feeling disconnected? I used to do my spiritual practice with the thought waves– “Now I am disconnected, but if I can purify my energy enough– get spiritual enough– then maybe, one day, I will reach enlightenment”… What if that idea itself, “I need yoga because I am disconnected” was the problem. Can we start practicing becoming aware of our beautiful life as it is now? We are already here, it’s just a matter of seeing where we get snagged and releasing that.

We are in the habit of living in one room of our mansion– the attic! When we see the endless stream of thought we can start to see how it distracts us from NOW. Most people are trying to maximize their personal pleasure and avoid pain– common sense enough, but this sort of planing and analyzing contorts how reality flows through us– it limits because there is all this energy in the mental filter, there is not just a body presence letting the natural mystery of life to flow through.

If we do yoga, we can’t worry about yoga. It will happen. We have to really connect to the deep desire for the true taste of life– organic 100% cage free! We start to become aware of everything– our toes, fingers, lips, tongue, eyes, skin, breath, brain and just see what the quality is. Is it too tight or too loose? Is it comfortable and present, or over-working? Are you here or looking for the next thing? I worked for a long time on foundations to prepare me for the future… I’m glad I did, but forcing myself to meditate and practice physical yoga in a disciplinarian way just wasn’t who I was– when I let it go, I found my body loved these things just because, and I could trust myself to do my practices when the time was right. If I wasn’t practicing, I would feel it, I would lose presence in my days, and re-adjust my days so I could fit in the practice that tapped me in to the ju-ju and rejuvenation I get from yoga. & THERE’s NO RIGHT WAY. If someone tries to TELL YOU THE RIGHT WAY, DENYING YOUR VALIDITY AS A TEACHER/ TOTAL INTELLIGENT INDIVIDUAL DROP OF THE COSMIC SOURCE — RUN.

The practices make us aware of our self. Why we forgot in the first place, why we separate, is an unanswerable WHY that is way less fun to explore then actually liberating the energy of the mind back to the shakti of NOW. When the pose is present enough but easy, the dam of the mind breaks and energy flows back into the body– if there is still a holding onto, “WHY?” or “Maybe One Day I Will Be Enlightened” — no, you have to RIDE THAT WAVE– let the body and breath presence take you and surf away from the habitual mind, and discover the moment through an expanded but centered state.

Let go of TRYING, MUSCLING and LAZINESS and do yoga that comes from you as an extension of you that connects you to you. No one else can do that for you– FEEL THYSELF. Teachers can show you what works for them, but you are the one who is going to do the work and feel it for real inside you.
We are already here, it’s just a matter of releasing the dams and fears and knots that stop the full flow. Do yoga to connect to yourself today, not for some future build up of awareness– Breath in a way that makes you feel alive right now, own it, you are feeling it, you are it, BE it.
xo

Kabir

It is time to put up the love-swing!

Tie the body and then the mind so that they swing between the arms of the Secret One you love.

Bring the water that falls from the clouds to your eyes, and cover yourself inside entirely with the shadow of night.

Bring your face up close to his ear,

and then talk only about what you want deeply to happen.

Kabir says: Listen to me, brother, bring the shape, face, and odor of the Holy One inside you.

–translated by Robert Bly , from “Ecstatic Poems” Beacon Press, 2004

 

Beyonce & Whales Remix

As heard in hip opening sequences, breath it in and let in ocean infinity– track by Bryce in NM

Puerto Rico Yoga Retreat April 3rd-7th, 2013

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At La Finca Caribe on the island of Vieques

bhavingjustdoit

Expand / Transform

IT MUST expand now; we must move the finite mind outside of this treadmill groove and into a holographic patterning which will allow it to identify for us those other octaves which are real– ecstasy and rapture, the frequency of our divine nature. In the presence of these energies, the physical and emotional bodies are spontaneously transformed.

–Chris Griscom from her book Ecstasy is a New Frequency (©1987, Bear and Co.)

Magic Sunglasses

galisteocosmicsunglasses copyPut on your thinking cap; I hope you have a real thinking cap, because they work. They are the first article of the mystical wardrobe. By putting on the cap, you have ceremonially outfitted yourself for the task at hand– using your mind clearly. Once you’ve established the thinking cap you can use a real hat or not and still get into that same state of mind– “for now, I am thinking, using my mind for this certain objective.”

 

Now let me introduce a second article of the mystical wardrobe– Magical Sunglasses.

These can be real glasses or imagined ones. As with the hat, having real glasses to infuse with your intention makes it even more fun.

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Winter Retreat Weekend Round-up

Breathwork 3/2 with Brooke Hamre Gillespie

AgnesMartinTrianglesSaturday, March 2nd 7:30-9:30 at Maha Rose in Greenpoint, Brooklyn.

Transformational breathwork led by Luke

Healing psychedelic music by Brooke ‘Flying Bear’ Gillespie (KA, Gentrix Peace)

exchange $20

RSVP  L u k e P r a k a s h @ gmail ( dot ) com