How can we feel more connected in yoga, and not just banging our head against a wall of feeling disconnected? I used to do my spiritual practice with the thought waves– “Now I am disconnected, but if I can purify my energy enough– get spiritual enough– then maybe, one day, I will reach enlightenment”… What if that idea itself, “I need yoga because I am disconnected” was the problem. Can we start practicing becoming aware of our beautiful life as it is now? We are already here, it’s just a matter of seeing where we get snagged and releasing that.
We are in the habit of living in one room of our mansion– the attic! When we see the endless stream of thought we can start to see how it distracts us from NOW. Most people are trying to maximize their personal pleasure and avoid pain– common sense enough, but this sort of planing and analyzing contorts how reality flows through us– it limits because there is all this energy in the mental filter, there is not just a body presence letting the natural mystery of life to flow through.
If we do yoga, we can’t worry about yoga. It will happen. We have to really connect to the deep desire for the true taste of life– organic 100% cage free! We start to become aware of everything– our toes, fingers, lips, tongue, eyes, skin, breath, brain and just see what the quality is. Is it too tight or too loose? Is it comfortable and present, or over-working? Are you here or looking for the next thing? I worked for a long time on foundations to prepare me for the future… I’m glad I did, but forcing myself to meditate and practice physical yoga in a disciplinarian way just wasn’t who I was– when I let it go, I found my body loved these things just because, and I could trust myself to do my practices when the time was right. If I wasn’t practicing, I would feel it, I would lose presence in my days, and re-adjust my days so I could fit in the practice that tapped me in to the ju-ju and rejuvenation I get from yoga. & THERE’s NO RIGHT WAY. If someone tries to TELL YOU THE RIGHT WAY, DENYING YOUR VALIDITY AS A TEACHER/ TOTAL INTELLIGENT INDIVIDUAL DROP OF THE COSMIC SOURCE — RUN.
The practices make us aware of our self. Why we forgot in the first place, why we separate, is an unanswerable WHY that is way less fun to explore then actually liberating the energy of the mind back to the shakti of NOW. When the pose is present enough but easy, the dam of the mind breaks and energy flows back into the body– if there is still a holding onto, “WHY?” or “Maybe One Day I Will Be Enlightened” — no, you have to RIDE THAT WAVE– let the body and breath presence take you and surf away from the habitual mind, and discover the moment through an expanded but centered state.
Let go of TRYING, MUSCLING and LAZINESS and do yoga that comes from you as an extension of you that connects you to you. No one else can do that for you– FEEL THYSELF. Teachers can show you what works for them, but you are the one who is going to do the work and feel it for real inside you.
We are already here, it’s just a matter of releasing the dams and fears and knots that stop the full flow. Do yoga to connect to yourself today, not for some future build up of awareness– Breath in a way that makes you feel alive right now, own it, you are feeling it, you are it, BE it.
xo